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Jocelyn (pelletier) Jackson (
jocelyn.jackson1326@yahoo.com ) -- Pikeville, NC
3/15/09 -- 03:42:08 PM
My Inner Battle
by
Jocelyn(pelletier)Jackson
Rewind to remember
-Not to get lost
Hit the pause button
-Consider the cost
Of finding me
-Familiar friend
Mind, body, soul
Together again
Just renews the pain
Of living without
The spark in my eye
And what I'm about
The inner desires
Freedom of breath
Devour my self
Grieve my death
Every time I go
-Claws another piece
Of my soul to shreds
His demons feast
He stole my innocence
Deceitful Fool
My daggered heart
-His crown jewel
Tangled briars
Ripping my skin
Looking thru you
Those lies were thin
Stopped asking why
Taking your horns
Smelling the roses
While you live
In your thorns
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Jocelyn (pelletier) Jackson (
jocelyn.jackson1326@yahoo.com ) -- Pikeville, NC
3/15/09 -- 03:36:09 PM
Well...i got that last note wrote and that is ALL she WROTE!
Got online and got me a round trip for JUST one day...ayuH, i
got it THAT baD...goin to land on a saturday morn. and leave
sun.afternoon....i just goTTa gO hoMe...Maine is callin'...sshhhh...listen
and u can hear it too~
Thank U, Steve, for the words of advice. I do plan to make the
permanent move a gradual one. Still have atleast 3 yrs of
college B4 i can afford anything up there...well, unless of
course i move in with family! Just kidding...goTTa be able to
stand on my own...and that is what i intend to do!
I wrote a poem recently about the continuous battle of missing
Maine and having to leave as a product of a divorce...think I'll
post it next...Hope all u Mainiacs will eat an italian for those
of us not able!!!
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S. W. -- Saco, ME
3/9/09 -- 06:11:08 AM
Hello to all you Exilers! I just got my first cup 'o Joe and
I'm typing this from the sun-porch here in Saco. There's a light
snow falling and we're supposed to get a few inches before it
quits. Not enough for the plow guy to bother with - I'll shovel
it instead.
We've had 70+ inches so far this year - a couple of the storms
were 18-20 inches. Lemme tell ya somethin', you might miss it
while you're away, but you won't miss it long once you move
home.
Having said that, I'm still glad to be back home, regardless of
the poor economy and lack of work. There really is "No place
like home".
To Jocelyn:
That was a great story and it actually brought tears to my eyes,
but don't rush back - wait until things firm up in regard to the
state's economy. There are Mom and Pop businesses closing here
in the Saco-Biddeford area on a weekly basis. I'm sure things
are bad all over the country, but Maine always seems to be
hardest hit. We are resiliant up here and to look at people's
faces around town, you'd never know things are as bad as they
are.
We will survive this.
Cheers to all,
Steve
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Jocelyn (pelletier) Jackson (
jocelyn.jackson1326@yahoo.com ) -- Pikeville, NC
3/8/09 -- 07:34:15 PM
Wow~sO many Maine folks writing in from North Carolina...we
should start our own 'we luV Maine' club!!
I am from the Portland/Sebago area. We left maine when i was
just 8 and I have been whining to get back forEVER--lol! I did
run away last year 3 times (Raleigh to Portland round trip was
only $232!) Drove the last trip with my 4 mostly grown teenagers
so that they could see what REAL snow looks like. First we hit
Corsetti's so they could taste what ITALIAN sandwiches are! It
was 8:30pm. My usual italian stomp is Bob's on 302 in Casco but
I couldnt risk them being closed and not get an italian...bad
enough to even not stop at Joe's Smokeshop in Portland to get
one but as a kid I didnt have to worry about parking! We arrived
in Casco on a tuesday nite shortly before Christmas(the week
before i think)and no snow on the ground that night...to wake up
to 6 inches and it comin down!!!! Managed enough to fall by
friday that they all got a quick ride on my cousins
snowmobile....ayuH~ they were ready to 'live in Maine,
MOM'....but timing is everything as they say and this isnt/wasnt
the right time.
So we loaded it all up that saturday and slipt and slid down my grandfather's snow covered dirt road, honkin the horn with every ache of my heart as my cousins waved from the warm house-3rd time I've told them good bye this year. We came upon the hwy. and knew that if i took a left towards Bobs convenient store we wouldnt have room for all the italian sandwiches i'd try to buy...(plus the thoughts of telling Bob and Jocelyn made my eyes burn with tears. I cried from Casco through Windham down my beloved 302-stopped in at the Blacksmiths Winery(such a thrill for "MOM" to show how to drive UP their driveway in ice and snow(was just what i needed to stop the boo-hooing...loaded up with Roughshod, blueberry, rasberry, and even rhubarb wine to bring to NC...(had to make sure the back of the car was weighed down in the snow after all...)The lady there recognized me from my previous two trips up in 2008 and she cried with me as I said good-bye once again...
Next stop was on Forest Ave. to gas up. I hesitated as I left the store...what if we DID stay...yeah we'd be w/o money soon...but I can work shoveling snow day and night if it meant staying home finally! We Mainiacs are of strong stock, resiliant, steadfast...determined. So I tightened up my top lip, hopped into the car and drove 17 hours only stoppin twice for gas. We fishtailed through the snow and ice the whole way back...that was the exact time that huge nor'easter was on its way. They said if we didnt leave then we couldnt make it back to NC for Christmas...I made it..we made it...and I am aching to get back every single day. For the record I did give away a few of the bottles of wine...got a couple empties as decoration in my kitchen. Still waiting for just the right time to pop open that rhubarb bottle. My 40th birthday is March 28th...considering that last year on my birthday i spent it in Maine, in Casco, on that dirt road(that got fresh snow i swear just for me) and in that house with that family....I think the rhubarb 'pop' will sound all the way to the great state we all love....and in my mind I'll be right there.
I waited until last year to go to college...I am in a program
that earns an assoc. in lib.science after 2yrs. but only have to
attend one night a week...TheN I can major in whatever I want
(open to Maine suggestions!)Have full time job, worked for the
state of NC for 8 yrs now...and as stated, married 20yrs (didnt
mention him in the trip b/c he was here in NC taking care of my
dogs!), 4 teenagers(well one is 21 this june). Gave my all for
all of them as we good Maine mommas do...but now it is time to
make a career...one that affords a daughter of a great state to
come hoMe. FiNaLLy.
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Cynthia Turkin (
millionairemama7155@yahoo.com ) -- Las Vegas, NV
3/6/09 -- 07:45:07 AM
Anyone ever live in turner maine? Do you remember back in
1972 or 1973 when the elementary school on the hill of upper
street burned down and they sent us all over to Leavitt Area
High School to finish the year?
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Brenda Adams (
brenda.adams@embarqmail.com ) -- Holly Springs, NC
Howdy All! Good to see a lot of postings from Mainers residing
in North Carolina. Ayuh, the snow dustings that we've had
sporatically the past week/month are enough to remind us to be
thankful that we won't be shovelling & plowing snow til late May
much like many of our loved ones in Maine. For those of you
looking to fill a craving for a sip of Moxie, check out your
local Fresh Market. I near about fell over when I spied glass
bottles of Moxie at the Fresh Market in Cary. It's currently
selling for $1.49 a bottle, but was a nice treat as I imagined I
was sitting on the dock at Youngs Lobster Pound in Belfast
dunking lobster in warm buttah! Ayuh, I've been in NC almost 14
years now and still get asked every once in awhile - Where are
you from? I proudly tell 'em Maine! Guess my accent still shines
through - despite the southern drawl influence. Have a wicked
good day ya'll!
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K. C. -- Redding, CA
2/23/09 -- 04:58:06 PM
Still in exile in Cali. This town is depressing! My husband
is all psyched because I'm sending him home to Maine for April
break; we got to go without him in October so it's his turn. We
still own our house in Kennebunkport, although it's rented for
the next 18 months, so we're hoping that we can come home in a
year or two. Cali is where family is...but Maine is where our
hearts are.
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Craig Warren (
craig.e.warren@gmail.com ) -- Danville, VA
2/20/09 -- 07:53:30 PM
Hello All!
Fellow Mainer and Moxie fanatic (and yes most of my family
thinks I am strange for liking Moxie). Greetings from VA!
While keeping in touch with family back in Downeast Maine and
hearing about all the snow, haven't had much of the white stuff
here in Central VA. Actually haven't had much snow since 2004
when I bought my Jeep Wrangler, but I bet as soon as I sell it
we'll get a foot. Anywho, hope all is well and miss god's
country.
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Merissa -- Washington, DC
2/11/09 -- 09:45:59 PM
I'm flying home to Maine on Friday!!! I'm so excited, I just
had to share. :) My boyfriend, who's a Marine based in Norfolk,
is getting a 96 so we're flying into Portland and going home to
Sorrento. I can't wait to be back in the snow, Friday can't
come soon enough!!
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Joanne ( Joannebp49@aol.com
) -- Valley Forge, PA
2/10/09 -- 11:00:26 AM
To B.H, Tatamy, Pa, and Roxanne, Nazareth, Pa. Hey, 2 other
Exilers down here. :>)
I am near Valley Forge. Family originally from
Millinocket-Bangor area, but I grew up in the big city of
Portland. Most of them are still up in the north woods and I
don't get home nearly enough. It's truly God's country.
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Leon Conary (
lfconary@tampabay.rr.com ) -- Winter Haven, FL
2/5/09 -- 06:52:57 AM
Originally from Deer Isle/Stonington. High school in
Searsport, then Bangor for many years. Moved to Winter Haven, Fl.
in 1996.
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